Hello

DS's been wanting an iphone for a while now. I actually want one too! They look super neat and all of my friends who have one are really happy with them. If I did have one I'd probably never not be online since there are so many apps available now! It probably wouldn't make much sense since I never really leave the house or use my phone as it is but DS could use it. Being a teenager he's out all the time now and it would be nice to know where he is all of the time. Of course I could call him but he rarely knows it's ringing to pick it up. With an iphone I could use the tracking thing to figure out where he's going or been when I'm wondering without being invasive. It's great there's an app for that. LOL!

Merry Friggin Christmas

Today really just stinks. I woke up today to find DH moving out, not sure if he's actually gone yet but he was packing stuff not long ago.

I've seriously been having it out with him the last couple of months but this is just ridiculous. I did tell him I wanted him to move out but not until AFTER Christmas and there was reason for it...the kids. But of course he has to be stupid and selfish and worry only about himself. It figures but still makes me mad as all anything. It's really hard to deal with people who have to be so dramatic and selfish especially when they're this close to you. I just hope this can finally be the beginning of me instead of being a parent to him too. I never wanted to have a partner who didn't act as one and I really couldn't take it anymore...but to move out the week of Christmas, great story for the kids...just great.

Stress!

I can't believe I've been so stressed lately that I've actually broken out on my back for the first time! It's really no fun at all seeing it manifest itself like this. I guess it could be worse and be all over my face instead, which is incredibly painful. I have to remember to pick up some body wash for acne while I'm out this week but knowing me I'll forget even if I do have a list. LOL! I really hope things work themselves out soon because I'm not sure how much more of this I can take.

The house situation is starting to look slightly better although it's still taking forever. We have a family member who is willing to help us out if we need him but only if the conditions are right for him so that's the bad part. Every time one thing starts to look up another starts to go down so it's really a roller coaster. I'm praying with everything I've got that this all works out so we can start going back to normal soon though. Here's hoping!

Artsy Child

DD loves anything to do with drawing and painting. I've gotten her to draw in blank books since she does it so often that she was wasting paper left and right but some of them came apart because she had gone into them so often. I figured out that the better ones were the books that had Velo binding or something extremely similar because they are so strong. Even when it's school time, I don't like buying those cheap notebooks because they barely make it through the year and end up spending some good money on things like that. It's worth it to me though for that reason alone. It's a good thing DS only needs a few or I'd be having to save for just those as it is. LOL!

Burn Out

I've reached that point of the year where I tart shutting down from exhaustion. It's really bad this time because it's so close to the holidays and the kids' birthdays and I can't afford to lose too much time taking days off. I kind of miss when the crazy time of my year would mean that I would be running around like crazy at work rather than sitting on my behind. It really helped to keep my weight down having such a physical job and I think I took it for granted because I've gained so much weight working from home. I really want to try to bring my weight down over the upcoming months so I'll probably get a bottle of Lipofuze or two to help me out some. Of course it would help if someone gave me a few months work of pay so I could finally start moving more, wouldn't it? LOL!!!

Bed Battle

With the cold coming and going it's been rather difficult to figure out how to prepare for each day. It seems like it's been raining at least once a week the last month or so with massive cold fronts accompanying the rain. One of my cats (who likes to hibernate) hasn't quite figured out what to do yet but you know when the cold is coming because she has to get into bed with you to keep warm, we think she thinks she's a person. LOL! Needless to say we run out of room incredibly quickly with DD and her pushing us out from the middle. I've thought about getting her one of those heated mattress pads so she can stay warm in her own spot but I'm not sure how that would go over yet because I think she really just likes the close bodily contact. LOL She's so weird. I think I'm going to get her one anyway because it can't hurt to try and gain back a little space for myself to sleep on.

*SIGH*!

We got word a day or so ago that someone had given incorrect information at the mortgage company. The Congresswoman's office had notified my mom that the extension had been accepted and a new sale date of 1/7 has been set. I'm praying that things work out and that we can stay, not only for the inconvenience of moving but because this is our home and it would be so hard to walk away from being here. I'm glad that even though we will still have to continue with the things we've already been dealing with we have a teeny bit of breathing room for now. The stress has become so awful that I physically don't function anymore. I sleep in shifts of less than 4 hours at a time, hardly eat and when I do my body wants to reject the food I've just put in it. I'm still praying that things will work out and this will all be a bad memory soon but with he way things have been going I know that this is only the beginning of something else to worry about bringing with it more ups and downs.

Freebies are FUN!

One of the things that I used to love about my last job was the little perks we would get. During sales and product shows we would go to one of the leading stores and have a rally. It was so fun to win things and get our momentum going for the event to come. The thing that DS liked was all the tradeshow giveaways that I used to come home with. I would get everything from pens and stickers to bags and hand-held light up fans. He thought all that was pretty neat and I really wasn't complaining either. One year I had gone back to help during a sale just so I could go to the rally, that's how much fun they were! LOL!

Feeling Fat

All this stress has really done a number on me. I'm so frantic in trying to cover the holidays and losing the house that I don't seem to be functioning properly at all so I'm really not taking care of myself. When my jeans don't fit the same way they did a month ago I know I have a big problem.

I've been staying up super late as often as I can to work on anything that comes my way. The good news is that the money is working out, the bad thing is that I'm not...working out that is. LOL I'm stuck sitting all day long and I think I'm just continuing to pack on the pounds. I have got to run out tomorrow and pick up some weight loss diet pills so that I can get some energy in early in the day and start taking care of myself as well as the finances. If I end up homeless AND gigantic things are definitely not going to look up for a while so I need to nip this in the bud as quickly as I can.

Wrinkles with Time

I've finally had to face the fact that I'm aging. I took a really good look in the mirror the other day and finally decided that I need to keep up with some sort of skin care regimen before I lose all the youth in my skin. It's really in a bad state and I'm even starting to get wrinkles! I started to think about getting some hgh pills but I think I need to be able to keep up with maintenance first and then think about drastic action if nothing improves. I never really thought that this would be coming so soon.

Nearing the End

I've been really sad lately...the mortgage company isn't going to help us at all and we're going to have to leave. It's the crappiest feeling knowing that you're going to lose your home. It does let you know who your friends are when things are this rough but it makes it worse when there are people that you thought would be there and they aren't.

I'm trying to stay optimistic but with each day that passes I just get more and more into despair. I wish that there was something I could do and I wish the government knew what they did to all the people that went or are going through the same thing we are. It's disgusting to know that they don't care how many families they throw out of their homes because of money. It makes me just want to move out of the country and never come back!